supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

I guess this is somewhere I will turn to when I have problems. I always do don't I? Its me being all asswipish and whiny once again.

Love is a funny game ain't it. One can't make up the equation. Two may or may not make it up. After all these years I am so tired of all the mundane relationships thats all a mere experience of growing up. Tell me, who grows up without experiencing such puppy love. I guess it was essential to let us learn what it truly is. At least for me, that would be the case.

I have never felt such pain, such agony, such fucked-upness. Time flies when she was around. Even the worst of times was nothing with her around. I didn't even realise it until the end of my journey in college. As mentioned earlier, one does not make up the equation. I guess I am not that talented in math after all, since she is all in love with mr mysterious. I just pray that he isn't as bad as the 'other one'.

I can't deny that I am real jealous of him. But other than that what can I do. Her best friend told me time and time again that its all up to fate and timing, and that I lack both of it. Perhaps so perhaps so. But really, I am starting to suspect that.

I still don't believe till this day that it took me this many years to find a girl that attracts me from inside to outside. The inner beauty is indeed all that matters. Guys who don't believe it, trust me. Looks can't get you far. You may look cool and whatever with a hot girl, but really, whos the one getting all the happiness.

After these 2 years, thats how long I took to realise that she has been all in front of me, I guess this is time for battle. So many dreams, so many hints, so many acts, however she caught none of them. I guess I ain't anything to her. My friends who think I am good in this equation,
Today, it shows that you guys are wrong. I guess I was merely lucky and nothing else.

I will ride into battle soon. If you guys don't catch me around, I guess you can find me a long time later. For now, the battle commences.
As I told weizhong: " I am gg into a battle without knowing how to fight my enemy. Cause i don even know what is the name of the country,how many soldiers it has and what weapons they use". Its going to be a blind fight people and I only have weizhong who is truly behind me. I guess many will be happy if I don't get her(that includes the most important people around me).

 HAHAHH! COME ON Peeps!
Don't go crazy over the F4 of 3708!

WOHOOO I HAVE A NEW HATE!

I need to thank Yihui for enlightening me:D He posed me a new question that let me seriously think about it. Hmmm Life has changed and its gonna all be about LY and A's :D

One single event made me see what a bitch you have turned into!
Thank You for spreading all the rumours :)
Thank You for being such an ass :) 
May God Bless You Cause You Have A Super High Chance Of Going To Hell Now

7th Month is coming :) 
Maybe its time for you to make some 'Bitch' buddies so that you wouldn't be so lonely down there?

There are a few you can consider?
The Lady with the Red Lantern
The Lady who got her tongue cut off
The Lady who got raped caused she dressed too sluttily

Hmmm If you need more you can damn ring the hell line up!
I bet Mr Devil will be happy when your death knell rings :)

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Back to today :)

Man the day was great man :D
Regression test was sweet:) For the first time I am confident of passing :)
Math Lecture is like the bomb cause I friggin love Mr Jason Seng!

Can't wait for PE tomorrow cause we are gonna have fun fun fun :)
Prelims Prep is going well I guess!
:D

Mass Comms HERE I COME :D

 

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHA

Man I have finally learnt to let go and the feeling is fucking goood!

 Weekend

Happy Birthday to someone!

And to LEECH TOO!

AND DADDY!

Hmmm last night celebrated Leech's Birthday!
:D It was great man! Thanks to Kendrick's Parents:D
Love The Cafe & Pub :D




Safra Bay Run this morning!
AHHAHH!
!0 K WAS FUN ! :D

National Day yesterday was fun man!
Watched the parade and finally got to meet up with the clique! Kinda sad that wilson couldn't make it though!I finally could chill out and talk crap with the guys LIKE FINALLY! Hung out with cheryl and ly after that till late :D

I SO DIDN'T TAKE THE PLEDGE AT 8.22 pm though! HAHAH!
I was like let me see.... lying on the sofa?
XD

I decided to enter the poetry competition this weekend :D
I think they are like kinda crappy but nonetheless, here they are :)

My Full Time Commitment

 

Love there will always be,

Eyes bright as the stars, laughter seismic in nature.

This is how you have always been,         

My full time commitment.

 

Many thought that we would last forever,

Days and days that we have spent together.

Who would expect us to part in this manner?

My full time commitment.                               

 

Stubborn as a bull you have always been,

Naive, trusting and guileless like a child.

Such a love hate relationship we had led,

My full time commitment.

 

Lightning struck and thunder roared,

Dark clouds enveloped your heart and soul,

Unguided, mislead as the death knell rings upon,

My full time commitment.

 

All hope is lost, your heart is gone.

Docked at a new harbor, solace you have found.

Was I merely another chapter of your life?

My full time commitment.

Our Materialistic World

 

The latest, the trendiest and the most expensive.

Latest electronics, fancy cars and expensive jewelry.

These are representations of our materialistic world.

 

Pushing ourselves to work so hard,

Years and years of sweat and blood,

Just to feed our desires in this materialistic world.

 

Driven by our appetite, thirst and hunger for more,

I awe at what humans can do,

Dedicating our lives to our materialistic world.

 

As we strive for everything money can buy,

Have we forgotten what it can't buy?

Can you see the disappointment of our materialistic world?

Faces Behind the Balaclava

 

To conceal their identity,

For the bad and the good.

To hide what they have done,

The faces behind the balaclava.

 

From Al-Qaeda to Jemaah Islamiyah,

Car bombs, time bombs, suicide bombs.

What have they not done to hurt us all?

The faces behind the balaclava.

 

To fight against the radicals,

Their identities are a secret to be kept.

A brave heart protecting us from the incendiaries,

The faces behind the balaclava.

 

The same concealment headgear,

With people on polarities,

Using it to hide and protect,

The faces behind the balaclava.


Hmm hope people who read it would enjoy it :D

 Man woke up with head aching like hell. Running a temperature, body burning.
Thought today would be a good day to test the public health system but haiya sad man!
The people there were working very hard no doubt! But they could have been more efficient if there were more signs to guide people to allow more efficiency human flow.

Wasted like 4 hours at that polyclinic today man! DAMN AGONISING!

Anyway got 7 days MC :( 
I want to go school to prepare for prelims!

从来没想过 
不能再和你牵手 
委屈时候 没有你 
陪着我心痛 
一切都是我 
太过骄纵 
以为你会懂 
一直忘了说 
我有多感动 
我知道你还是爱着我 
虽然 分开的理由 
我们都已接受 
你知道我会有多难过 
所以 即使到最后 
还微笑着 要我加油 
我知道你还放不下我 
才会 在离开时 
闭着眼没有回头 
我们都知道彼此心中 
其实这份爱没停过 

You sent this to me. I can't get the meaning of it. Your actions don't fit your words. Your words don't fit your actions. I don't understand what do you want from me. I do not know what and how I am supposed to feel from this. I am so lost so lost so lost. I don't know what to do anymore. Its ironic, its psychedelic. Damn no wonder its called love psychedelico. I don't know how you can act like everything is ok between us and how you can just treat me so simply like a normal friend. I don't know why you can send me that and then talk about him the next moment. Things are just so ironic. I have turned taciturn towards you cause its getting so awkward. I do not expect you to feel that way. I don't even know how you feel towards this.

I am officially stressed out. My teacher told me during PTM that I am lazy. I refute that statement. I agree that I sleep in lectures and tutorials. But whenever I am awake which is most of the time, I will put in my best. Whenever there is a break I am studying. After school I will be studying till late. When I get home to relax, mum will nag saying that I have been playing the whole day and I should go study. This is getting irritating. Its repeating itself again and again. Its even worse during the weekend when its my only time to unwind. In the end I would not get the maximum effect of it cause of the stress that people put on me. You press me so hard yet you expect me to fail my A's. Is that what you think of me? Do you think thats the best that I can do? FUck you! Fuck you all!

Its no doubt that my math is poor! BUT FUCK CAN'T YOU FUCKING SEE I AM PRACTICING IT ALL THE TIME? I AM SO FUCKING DEPRESSED. I get no fucking support. All I have are expectations. You expect me to do well based upon my own willpower. All I see is you trying to cripple me. I bet the people out there will be freaking happy to see my downfall.

I feel my existence unwanted in this world. I find no meaning in my life on this planet. I guess RF taught me well. Religion may be a good solace. Or perhaps external sources that takes my body away from the pain. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I am fighting for anymore.

I used to have a reason to mug hard during O's. I lost that reason. All hope is lost till I can find that motivation. I am just studying so damn hard in the hope of making the councillors proud. Life is shit! Holy shit!

I think I need to see a shrink soon cause my mind is shrinking and my will power to live is minimizing. I miss Wii's owner a hell load. You are the only person who truly understands me yet you can't be there now.

I HATE THIS LIFE! 
I HATE EXPECTATIONS.

 Quick Update.

Had med check 2 days back and man I am in Pes 2c! Stupid knee and Osgood Schlatters Disease!
Hope time will pass slower this next 18 weeks cause thats how long more to the A's.
Feel so unprepared and helpless to its arrival.Life is so unpredictable and man is it ever possible to prepare  for life?

Tiring school day!
Pe was just mundane?
The rest was arghhH!
But history tutorial was alright though.
Tuition was just pure torture!

H1N1?Hit AJ big time soon please! Like HIT those assholes first!
Hope they will die from sneezing and wheezing, coughing and spitting.

AHAHHA!
Man had a damn good dream this morning!
Dreamt that I got married!AHHAHAH!
Man so love the dream so love the dream!

Michael Jackson is truly a LEGEND!
Respects to you the KING OF POP!

 one four eight
one three eight
forty five

life is priceless. why are we driven by desires?why do we create desires in the first place?holesome desires?thats just one of it. nothing beats having all our desires fulfilled. how i wish that it would be true but come on. thats life.

everything in life is fine. its been 3 months and 5 days since it happened. Can't believe that everything drew to a close just like that but i guess nothing much can be done about it. life is like that. accept it. moving on with life. we will always be the bestest friends though.

more more more to look forward in life. people come and go. we only got one life, live it well, live it with no regrets. ever wondered why we were made. ever wondered what would happen if we die. our memories will draw to a close. our experiences will all be gone. fear death?why fear?embrace it making sure that when it comes to find you, you are ready to go with it with a smile on your face.

hahahha ok i dunno why was that paragraph so emo but hahahha hell yeah live life well!
I AM FEEELING SO RETARDED NOW!
Med Check tomorrow with Siow and Ken!oh man gonna wake up so damn early for that check up! Hope that all will be well tomorrow!

Oh ya and ahhahah! I AM DESIRING AN E63! HAHAHAH!

 Life's been a whore!Fuck it!

Today is going to be a start of a brand new day. A start of a brand new life. Put the past down, put the memories down. A new blog for a new me. 

Its the beginning of the hols and it don't even feel like it at all. School's a bitch, everything ain't going well other than yu. 

Bitch gang in school is real irritating!

Can't wait for the ZYLC meet up eh! HAHAHAH! Yanling oh Yanling HAHAHHAH!

Puff Puff Puff!:( 
Its such a let down.